I am back home in Mass and yet more far away than ever. What do I do? I have about 1000 schools I can go to in America and I cant pick one. Do I go to UMass Lowell and take the easy route, or go farther away to Maine or Washington State, or even Abroad, like Ireland and New Zealand. With teaching, I am not at a cross road, I am at a road that splits into one thousand roads. I feel reborn.

I feel like a kid again. The sun hits my face through the green leaves and I feel so happy. Maybe its Zen and the Zen Books, Maybe its getting the sweet satisfaction of closure, or even just smelling this rain, but I feel happy. I got straight A's and kicked ass on my 5 pound weight loss plan. I feel happy, an exciting Joy. It feels like Christmas, going on a Date with a cute girl, and looking at a purple and orange sunset in the fall, all at the same time. I feel like I am waiting for something HUGE.

Oh, I know. Remember when you were a kid and something like "Lets go to the Museum of Science!!". You didn't understand it all, but HOLY FUCK was it exciting!!! Yeah, I feel like that...anyway....after my last class, my professor actually emailed my Gmail account and asked me to stay in touch and that I could use him for a letter of recommendation...that I didn't even ask for. I love being impressive.

So, I have about a year to go if I transfer...but only at PSU. I cannot afford 26+ Thousand Dollars to go.

If I cared about money, I would have stayed in Biotechnology, but I care more about helping kids and becoming that "cool teacher". Summers off and Male Teachers are in high demand like Keystone at PSU.

I am glad I will never see that place again. Then again, I love every memory I had. The good that made me smile, and the bad that made me stronger. I kinda wish I could just be taken seriously and respected in front of my friends. I guess thats the mistake I get for being the Joker. I like the social dichotomy. One side is fun, one side is deep.

I am just happy to be me.